these days

I'm in a funk these days.

I don't know whats wrong....well honestly I can't pinpoint whats wrong.

The kids are happy/healthy, the house is (fairly) clean, work is (crazy) normal, husband is same as always.

I feel anxious like I should be doing something but I can't find anything to do that makes that feeling go away.

The other night I drank quite a bit of a huge bottle of wine...that didn't help.

Today I am off of work. It's President's Day, a director holiday. I can't relax, I feel like I should be at work. The kids are busy and content. I've been researching a job change online and maybe thats where the anxiety comes from. Part of me thinks that people are going to think I'm crazy for even considering what I want to do. I have a great job, regular hours, steady paycheck..great paycheck. The alternative would be unsure, longer hours, more challenging, and probably a huge cut in pay. Maybe more fulfilling and fun but we couldn't make it work budget wise.

This is the part about being a responsible adult/parent that sucks.